Chapter 1: The Wisdom of Dhamma

Listening to Dhamma talks by Buddhist monks always leaves me feeling humbled. Their profound insights into the workings of the mind often seem to resonate with my own experiences. At times, their words feel like a harsh truth, yet I don’t take it to heart; instead, it helps me recognize my missteps along the path.

Of course, these teachings aren't aimed at me personally; the monks have no knowledge of my existence. This intriguing aspect of the Dhamma is that it can feel as if the speaker is addressing you directly.

I don’t claim to possess the wisdom of a monk; I’m merely an upasaka (lay Buddhist). I maintain this blog as a means to articulate my thoughts. While some of my reflections may assist others, my comprehension is ever-evolving, and I sometimes misinterpret concepts. Thus, I encourage anyone interested in Dhamma to seek out the teachings of the monks. You can find numerous Dhamma talks by various Ajahns on platforms like YouTube.

As I deepen my understanding of Dhamma, I hope my writing will also improve. Articulating my thoughts helps me solidify my learning, and contemplation is an essential part of the spiritual journey.

This blog may not resonate with everyone; it is simply a record of my personal path.

I have reached a point where I am weary of suffering and the cyclical nature of rebirth. Contemplating the implications of being reborn in this world fills me with unease. It would bring suffering not only for myself but also for my mother, who would endure the burden of carrying me for nine months. The act of giving birth could even endanger her life. Moreover, my existence would mean that others have to care for me until I can fend for myself, adding to their burdens. To live in this world necessitates the death of other beings, as nourishment is essential. The thought of returning to this world after this life is discomforting.

The world certainly needs enlightened beings, as it seems to be on a path to destruction. I fear we may be on the brink of another global conflict, which could unleash unimaginable horrors, especially with our arsenal of weapons. Additionally, we face the looming threats of climate change and pollution, which are affecting both the planet and our health. Many of us are now carrying plastic and industrial toxins in our bodies, leading to potential health crises. Furthermore, we are witnessing a mass extinction event, as numerous species vanish, a heavy toll of our consumer-driven lifestyle.

Changes are unfolding in the world, and the spiritual insights I am cultivating might prove invaluable in the future—if I manage to endure that long.

The potential for societal decay is real. In desperate times, individuals may commit heinous acts and rationalize them. There might be societal pressure for me to conform to such behaviors. However, I must resist this temptation. Even if it results in ostracism or worse, it is preferable to endure that than compromise my moral values.

I harbor a greater fear of the impurities within myself than those in the external world. I must not allow the degradation around me to corrupt my own spirit.

The time I have now to engage with Dhamma represents a golden opportunity that may not present itself again for a considerable time. I have a chance to cultivate my mind and embrace the noble eightfold path. The future is uncertain, but the signs suggest it will be fraught with challenges.

Learning meditation and delving into Dhamma is far from a waste of time. I believe it will ultimately benefit both myself and others in the times ahead. This knowledge is truly invaluable.

Chapter 2: The Path Forward