The Initial Challenges

The first two years of my career were tough, but not in the way I had anticipated. I wasn't struggling with my job per se; I understood that I was part of a project with tight deadlines. I diligently completed my tasks and tackled problems as they arose, which was the expectation for a first-year analyst.

I took the initiative to provide a root cause analysis to my team lead, which he appreciated. This led to me shadowing him throughout the day, attending various meetings and discussions. I relished this aspect of my role, believing it aligned perfectly with my vision of being a dedicated consultant.

However, unbeknownst to me, underlying issues were starting to surface. The consulting firm I joined implemented a performance evaluation system called 360 feedback. The Managing Directors believed that every team member contributed to the success of the firm, and thus feedback was gathered from all angles during evaluations.

It struck me as somewhat humorous; I imagined that if the pantry staff were consulted, their feedback might not bode well for the MDs during bonus season.

My first 360 feedback was a rude awakening. While I had expected nothing remarkable, I was taken aback by the results regarding my teamwork skills.

I discovered comments like: "Aldric is a lone wolf," and "He needs to develop his interpersonal skills." I was devastated. Why hadn’t anyone mentioned these concerns during the evaluation?

Seeking Guidance

Feeling lost, I turned to my HR representative for advice, but her response was less than comforting. She explained that 360 feedback was designed to be candid and open.

Determined to gain clarity, I reached out to the Managing Director from my final interview. She candidly informed me that the workplace operates like a game with multiple players. Many colleagues may be lost and require assistance. I had entered the scene with a clear understanding of what to expect, which put me in a challenging position.

She advised me to consider how my peers felt when they saw me taking the lead. I had never contemplated this perspective before, and it hit me hard. The feedback was their way of expressing frustration.

Additionally, she pointed out the importance of my working relationship with my team lead, who was focused on tasks rather than team dynamics. The implication was clear; I needed to be aware of the political landscape within the firm.

Learning the Hard Way

I joined consulting to fulfill my ambitions and to excel, but I quickly learned that workplace relationships and perceptions matter significantly. Allowing space for others to shine is crucial. This realization made me uncomfortable, and I struggled for the next three years to adapt my mindset and approach.

Unsurprisingly, the 360 feedback continued to reflect my shortcomings. Eventually, I decided to leave that firm.

The Conclusion

Is it possible to despise a job you once loved? Absolutely. My journey has convinced me of this truth.

The key takeaway is that we don't have to accept our circumstances passively; we have the power to make changes. No matter where we find ourselves, we must understand the rules of the game and play to our strengths.

There's no reason to remain in a position where you excel but receive no recognition or incentives. Be the hero of your own story, not the one who fades into the background.

The first video, "I Go to Work In Tears Every Day Because I Hate My Job!" explores the emotional struggles many face in their careers.

The second video, "What To Do When You Don't Like Your Job | 5 Tips When Unhappy At Work," offers practical advice for those feeling dissatisfied in their roles.